Can I?
I ask myself this everyday
Can I?
Be someone proud
Can I?
Be someone who goes to Japan
A dream within a dream
Living outside
An existential crisis
Can I?
Live with being me
A contradiction
Up and down
Travel or no
Paralysed
Frozen inbetween
Can I?
Be a father
A man to lead generations
Children who look up
To the guy who was meant to lead the way
I don’t know
I’m drowning
In indecision
I’m shattered
Pick myself back together
Can I?
Survive the pandemic
Living alone
It’s scary
I feel the weight
Unknown shadows
On my shoulders
Can I?
Be the man
Inside my mind
Samurai
Connection to culture
Can I?
Keep moving
Uncertainty
I cry
Can I?
Breathe
I’m suffocating
Can I?
Live with myself
Can I?
Not be drunk
Making excuses
Can I?
Listen to myself
Find the answer
Can I?
Bear the pain
Move beyond suicide
Can I?
Explore Hokkaido
Eat ramen in an izakaya
Drink sake in a brewery
Be the gaijn in Roppongi
Dance awkwardly to K-pop
Dive into Kyushu
Drinking shochu
Can I?
Lie on a beach in Okinawa
Speak of the habushu myth
In bars with old men
Still trying to get it up
Can I?
Sip awamori
See kame
Melded before me
Can I?
Accept the things
That can’t be controlled
I don’t know
I’m trying
Forgive me
I will
One day
I see the dawn
Rising
Can I?
I can
Completed
A dream
Reality
The life I’m living
At last
I’m here
Peace
I’m living
A feeling
Without fear
Amazing
Clear eyes
Blue skies
The future is bright
Yamato Magazine 